And the will therein lieth,
which
dieth not. Who knoweth the mysteries of the will, with its vigor? For God
is but a great will pervading all things by nature of its intentness. Man
doth not yield himself to the angels, nor unto death utterly, save only
through the weakness of his feeble will. —Joseph Glanvill.
I cannot, for my soul, remember
how, when, or even precisely where, I first became acquainted with the
lady Ligeia. Long years have since elapsed, and my memory is feeble through
much suffering. Or, perhaps, I cannot now bring these points to mind, because,
in truth, the character of my beloved, her rare learning, her singular
yet placid cast of beauty, and the thrilling and enthralling eloquence
of her low musical language, made their way into my heart by paces so steadily
and stealthily progressive that they have been unnoticed and unknown. Yet
I believe that I met her first and most frequently in some large, old,
decaying city near the Rhine. Of her family --I have surely heard her speak.
That it is of a remotely ancient date cannot be doubted. Ligeia! Ligeia!
in studies of a nature more than all else adapted to deaden impressions
of the outward world, it is by that sweet word alone --by Ligeia --that
I bring before mine eyes in fancy the image of her who is no more. And
now, while I write, a recollection flashes upon me that I have never known
the paternal name of her who was my friend and my betrothed, and who became
the partner of my studies, and finally the wife of my bosom. Was it a playful
charge on the part of my Ligeia? or was it a test of my strength of affection,
that I should institute no inquiries upon this point? or was it rather
a caprice of my own --a wildly romantic offering on the shrine of the most
passionate devotion? I but indistinctly recall the fact itself --what wonder
that I have utterly forgotten the circumstances which originated or attended
it? And, indeed, if ever she, the wan and the misty-winged Ashtophet of
idolatrous Egypt, presided, as they tell, over marriages ill-omened, then
most surely she presided over mine.
There is one dear topic, however,
on which my memory falls me not. It is the person of Ligeia. In stature
she was tall, somewhat slender, and, in her latter days, even emaciated.
I would in vain attempt to portray the majesty, the quiet ease, of her
demeanor, or the incomprehensible lightness and elasticity of her footfall.
She came and departed as a shadow. I was never made aware of her entrance
into my closed study save by the dear music of her low sweet voice, as
she placed her marble hand upon my shoulder. In beauty of face no maiden
ever equalled her. It was the radiance of an opium-dream --an airy and
spirit-lifting vision more wildly divine than the phantasies which hovered
vision about the slumbering souls of the daughters of Delos. Yet her features
were not of that regular mould which we have been falsely taught to worship
in the classical labors of the heathen. "There is no exquisite beauty,"
says Bacon, Lord Verulam, speaking truly of all the forms and genera of
beauty, without some strangeness in the proportion." Yet, although I saw
that the features of Ligeia were not of a classic regularity --although
I perceived that her loveliness was indeed "exquisite," and felt that there
was much of "strangeness" pervading it, yet I have tried in vain to detect
the irregularity and to trace home my own perception of "the strange."
I examined the contour of the lofty and pale forehead --it was faultless
--how cold indeed that word when applied to a majesty so divine! --the
skin rivalling the purest ivory, the commanding extent and repose, the
gentle prominence of the regions above the temples; and then the raven-black,
the glossy, the luxuriant and naturally-curling tresses, setting forth
the full force of the Homeric epithet, "hyacinthine!" I looked at the delicate
outlines of the nose --and nowhere but in the graceful medallions of the
Hebrews had I beheld a similar perfection. There were the same luxurious
smoothness of surface, the same scarcely perceptible tendency to the aquiline,
the same harmoniously curved nostrils speaking the free spirit. I regarded
the sweet mouth. Here was indeed the triumph of all things heavenly --the
magnificent turn of the short upper lip --the soft, voluptuous slumber
of the under --the dimples which sported, and the color which spoke --the
teeth glancing back, with a brilliancy almost startling, every ray of the
holy light which fell upon them in her serene and placid, yet most exultingly
radiant of all smiles. I scrutinized the formation of the chin --and here,
too, I found the gentleness of breadth, the softness and the majesty, the
fullness and the spirituality, of the Greek --the contour which the god
Apollo revealed but in a dream, to Cleomenes, the son of the Athenian.
And then I peered into the large eves of Ligeia.
For eyes we have no models in the
remotely antique. It might have been, too, that in these eves of my beloved
lay the secret to which Lord Verulam alludes. They were, I must believe,
far larger than the ordinary eyes of our own race. They were even fuller
than the fullest of the gazelle eyes of the tribe of the valley of Nourjahad.
Yet it was only at intervals --in moments of intense excitement --that
this peculiarity became more than slightly noticeable in Ligeia. And at
such moments was her beauty --in my heated fancy thus it appeared perhaps
--the beauty of beings either above or apart from the earth --the beauty
of the fabulous Houri of the Turk. The hue of the orbs was the most brilliant
of black, and, far over them, hung jetty lashes of great length. The brows,
slightly irregular in outline, had the same tint. The "strangeness," however,
which I found in the eyes, was of a nature distinct from the formation,
or the color, or the brilliancy of the features, and must, after all, be
referred to the expression. Ah, word of no meaning! behind whose vast latitude
of mere sound we intrench our ignorance of so much of the spiritual. The
expression of the eyes of Ligeia! How for long hours have I pondered upon
it! How have I, through the whole of a midsummer night, struggled to fathom
it! What was it --that something more profound than the well of Democritus
--which lay far within the pupils of my beloved? What was it? I was possessed
with a passion to discover. Those eyes! those large, those shining, those
divine orbs! they became to me twin stars of Leda, and I to them devoutest
of astrologers.
There is no point, among the many
incomprehensible anomalies of the science of mind, more thrillingly exciting
than the fact --never, I believe, noticed in the schools --that, in our
endeavors to recall to memory something long forgotten, we often find ourselves
upon the very verge of remembrance, without being able, in the end, to
remember. And thus how frequently, in my intense scrutiny of Ligeia's eyes,
have I felt approaching the full knowledge of their expression --felt it
approaching --yet not quite be mine --and so at length entirely depart!
And (strange, oh strangest mystery of all!) I found, in the commonest objects
of the universe, a circle of analogies to theat expression. I mean to say
that, subsequently to the period when Ligeia's beauty passed into my spirit,
there dwelling as in a shrine, I derived, from many existences in the material
world, a sentiment such as I felt always aroused within me by her large
and luminous orbs. Yet not the more could I define that sentiment, or analyze,
or even steadily view it. I recognized it, let me repeat, sometimes in
the survey of a rapidly-growing vine --in the contemplation of a moth,
a butterfly, a chrysalis, a stream of running water. I have felt it in
the ocean; in the falling of a meteor. I have felt it in the glances of
unusually aged people. And there are one or two stars in heaven --(one
especially, a star of the sixth magnitude, double and changeable, to be
found near the large star in Lyra) in a telescopic scrutiny of which I
have been made aware of the feeling. I have been filled with it by certain
sounds from stringed instruments, and not unfrequently by passages from
books. Among innumerable other instances, I well remember something in
a volume of Joseph Glanvill, which (perhaps merely from its quaintness
--who shall say?) never failed to inspire me with the sentiment; --"And
the will therein lieth, which dieth not. Who knoweth the mysteries of the
will, with its vigor? For God is but a great will pervading all things
by nature of its intentness. Man doth not yield him to the angels, nor
unto death utterly, save only through the weakness of his feeble will."
Length of years, and subsequent
reflection, have enabled me to trace, indeed, some remote connection between
this passage in the English moralist and a portion of the character of
Ligeia. An intensity in thought, action, or speech, was possibly, in her,
a result, or at least an index, of that gigantic volition which, during
our long intercourse, failed to give other and more immediate evidence
of its existence. Of all the women whom I have ever known, she, the outwardly
calm, the ever-placid Ligeia, was the most violently a prey to the tumultuous
vultures of stern passion. And of such passion I could form no estimate,
save by the miraculous expansion of those eyes which at once so delighted
and appalled me --by the almost magical melody, modulation, distinctness
and placidity of her very low voice --and by the fierce energy (rendered
doubly effective by contrast with her manner of utterance) of the wild
words which she habitually uttered.
I have spoken of the learning of
Ligeia: it was immense --such as I have never known in woman. In the classical
tongues was she deeply proficient, and as far as my own acquaintance extended
in regard to the modern dialects of Europe, I have never known her at fault.
Indeed upon any theme of the most admired, because simply the most abstruse
of the boasted erudition of the academy, have I ever found Ligeia at fault?
How singularly --how thrillingly, this one point in the nature of my wife
has forced itself, at this late period only, upon my attention! I said
her knowledge was such as I have never known in woman --but where breathes
the man who has traversed, and successfully, all the wide areas of moral,
physical, and mathematical science? I saw not then what I now clearly perceive,
that the acquisitions of Ligeia were gigantic, were astounding; yet I was
sufficiently aware of her infinite supremacy to resign myself, with a child-like
confidence, to her guidance through the chaotic world of metaphysical investigation
at which I was most busily occupied during the earlier years of our marriage.
With how vast a triumph --with how vivid a delight --with how much of all
that is ethereal in hope --did I feel, as she bent over me in studies but
little sought --but less known --that delicious vista by slow degrees expanding
before me, down whose long, gorgeous, and all untrodden path, I might at
length pass onward to the goal of a wisdom too divinely precious not to
be forbidden!
How poignant, then, must have been
the grief with which, after some years, I beheld my well-grounded expectations
take wings to themselves and fly away! Without Ligeia I was but as a child
groping benighted. Her presence, her readings alone, rendered vividly luminous
the many mysteries of the transcendentalism in which we were immersed.
Wanting the radiant lustre of her eyes, letters, lambent and golden, grew
duller than Saturnian lead. And now those eyes shone less and less frequently
upon the pages over which I pored. Ligeia grew ill. The wild eyes blazed
with a too --too glorious effulgence; the pale fingers became of the transparent
waxen hue of the grave, and the blue veins upon the lofty forehead swelled
and sank impetuously with the tides of the gentle emotion. I saw that she
must die --and I struggled desperately in spirit with the grim Azrael.
And the struggles of the passionate wife were, to my astonishment, even
more energetic than my own. There had been much in her stern nature to
impress me with the belief that, to her, death would have come without
its terrors; --but not so. Words are impotent to convey any just idea of
the fierceness of resistance with which she wrestled with the Shadow. I
groaned in anguish at the pitiable spectacle. would have soothed --I would
have reasoned; but, in the intensity of her wild desire for life, --for
life --but for life --solace and reason were the uttermost folly. Yet not
until the last instance, amid the most convulsive writhings of her fierce
spirit, was shaken the external placidity of her demeanor. Her voice grew
more gentle --grew more low --yet I would not wish to dwell upon the wild
meaning of the quietly uttered words. My brain reeled as I hearkened entranced,
to a melody more than mortal --to assumptions and aspirations which mortality
had never before known.
That she loved me I should not have
doubted; and I might have been easily aware that, in a bosom such as hers,
love would have reigned no ordinary passion. But in death only, was I fully
impressed with the strength of her affection. For long hours, detaining
my hand, would she pour out before me the overflowing of a heart whose
more than passionate devotion amounted to idolatry. How had I deserved
to be so blessed by such confessions? --how had I deserved to be so cursed
with the removal of my beloved in the hour of her making them, But upon
this subject I cannot bear to dilate. Let me say only, that in Ligeia's
more than womanly abandonment to a love, alas! all unmerited, all unworthily
bestowed, I at length recognized the principle of her longing with so wildly
earnest a desire for the life which was now fleeing so rapidly away. It
is this wild longing --it is this eager vehemence of desire for life --but
for life --that I have no power to portray --no utterance capable of expressing.
At high noon of the night in which
she departed, beckoning me, peremptorily, to her side, she bade me repeat
certain verses composed by herself not many days before. I obeyed her.
--They were these:
Lo! 'tis a gala night
Within the lonesome latter years!
An angel throng, bewinged, bedight
In veils, and drowned in tears,
Sit in a theatre, to see
A play of hopes and fears,
While the orchestra breathes fitfully
The music of the spheres.
Mimes, in the form of God on high,
Mutter and mumble low,
And hither and thither fly --
Mere puppets they, who come and
go
At bidding of vast formless things
That shift the scenery to and fro,
Flapping from out their Condor wings
Invisible Wo!
That motley drama! --oh, be sure
It shall not be forgot!
With its Phantom chased forever
more,
By a crowd that seize it not,
Through a circle that ever returneth
in
To the self-same spot,
And much of Madness and more of
Sin
And Horror the soul of the plot.
But see, amid the mimic rout,
A crawling shape intrude!
A blood-red thing that writhes from
out
The scenic solitude!
It writhes! --it writhes! --with
mortal pangs
The mimes become its food,
And the seraphs sob at vermin fangs
In human gore imbued.
Out --out are the lights --out all!
And over each quivering form,
The curtain, a funeral pall,
Comes down with the rush of a storm,
And the angels, all pallid and wan,
Uprising, unveiling, affirm
That the play is the tragedy, "Man,"
And its hero the Conqueror Worm.
"O God!" half shrieked Ligeia, leaping to her feet and extending her arms
aloft with a spasmodic movement, as I made an end of these lines --"O God!
O Divine Father! --shall these things be undeviatingly so? --shall this
Conqueror be not once conquered? Are we not part and parcel in Thee? Who
--who knoweth the mysteries of the will with its vigor? Man doth not yield
him to the angels, nor unto death utterly, save only through the weakness
of his feeble will."
And now, as if exhausted with emotion,
she suffered her white arms to fall, and returned solemnly to her bed of
death. And as she breathed her last sighs, there came mingled with them
a low murmur from her lips. I bent to them my ear and distinguished, again,
the concluding words of the passage in Glanvill --"Man doth not yield him
to the angels, nor unto death utterly, save only through the weakness of
his feeble will."
She died; --and I, crushed into
the very dust with sorrow, could no longer endure the lonely desolation
of my dwelling in the dim and decaying city by the Rhine. I had no lack
of what the world calls wealth. Ligeia had brought me far more, very far
more than ordinarily falls to the lot of mortals. After a few months, therefore,
of weary and aimless wandering, I purchased, and put in some repair, an
abbey, which I shall not name, in one of the wildest and least frequented
portions of fair England. The gloomy and dreary grandeur of the building,
the almost savage aspect of the domain, the many melancholy and time-honored
memories connected with both, had much in unison with the feelings of utter
abandonment which had driven me into that remote and unsocial region of
the country. Yet although the external abbey, with its verdant decay hanging
about it, suffered but little alteration, I gave way, with a child-like
perversity, and perchance with a faint hope of alleviating my sorrows,
to a display of more than regal magnificence within. --For such follies,
even in childhood, I had imbibed a taste and now they came back to me as
if in the dotage of grief. Alas, I feel how much even of incipient madness
might have been discovered in the gorgeous and fantastic draperies, in
the solemn carvings of Egypt, in the wild cornices and furniture, in the
Bedlam patterns of the carpets of tufted gold! I had become a bounden slave
in the trammels of opium, and my labors and my orders had taken a coloring
from my dreams. But these absurdities must not pause to detail. Let me
speak only of that one chamber, ever accursed, whither in a moment of mental
alienation, I led from the altar as my bride --as the successor of the
unforgotten Ligeia --the fair-haired and blue-eyed Lady Rowena Trevanion,
of Tremaine.
There is no individual portion of
the architecture and decoration of that bridal chamber which is not now
visibly before me. Where were the souls of the haughty family of the bride,
when, through thirst of gold, they permitted to pass the threshold of an
apartment so bedecked, a maiden and a daughter so beloved? I have said
that I minutely remember the details of the chamber --yet I am sadly forgetful
on topics of deep moment --and here there was no system, no keeping, in
the fantastic display, to take hold upon the memory. The room lay in a
high turret of the castellated abbey, was pentagonal in shape, and of capacious
size. Occupying the whole southern face of the pentagon was the sole window
--an immense sheet of unbroken glass from Venice --a single pane, and tinted
of a leaden hue, so that the rays of either the sun or moon, passing through
it, fell with a ghastly lustre on the objects within. Over the upper portion
of this huge window, extended the trellice-work of an aged vine, which
clambered up the massy walls of the turret. The ceiling, of gloomy-looking
oak, was excessively lofty, vaulted, and elaborately fretted with the wildest
and most grotesque specimens of a semi-Gothic, semi-Druidical device. From
out the most central recess of this melancholy vaulting, depended, by a
single chain of gold with long links, a huge censer of the same metal,
Saracenic in pattern, and with many perforations so contrived that there
writhed in and out of them, as if endued with a serpent vitality, a continual
succession of parti-colored fires.
Some few ottomans and golden candelabra,
of Eastern figure, were in various stations about --and there was the couch,
too --bridal couch --of an Indian model, and low, and sculptured of solid
ebony, with a pall-like canopy above. In each of the angles of the chamber
stood on end a gigantic sarcophagus of black granite, from the tombs of
the kings over against Luxor, with their aged lids full of immemorial sculpture.
But in the draping of the apartment lay, alas! the chief phantasy of all.
The lofty walls, gigantic in height --even unproportionably so --were hung
from summit to foot, in vast folds, with a heavy and massive-looking tapestry
--tapestry of a material which was found alike as a carpet on the floor,
as a covering for the ottomans and the ebony bed, as a canopy for the bed,
and as the gorgeous volutes of the curtains which partially shaded the
window. The material was the richest cloth of gold. It was spotted all
over, at irregular intervals, with arabesque figures, about a foot in diameter,
and wrought upon the cloth in patterns of the most jetty black. But these
figures partook of the true character of the arabesque only when regarded
from a single point of view. By a contrivance now common, and indeed traceable
to a very remote period of antiquity, they were made changeable in aspect.
To one entering the room, they bore the appearance of simple monstrosities;
but upon a farther advance, this appearance gradually departed; and step
by step, as the visitor moved his station in the chamber, he saw himself
surrounded by an endless succession of the ghastly forms which belong to
the superstition of the Norman, or arise in the guilty slumbers of the
monk. The phantasmagoric effect was vastly heightened by the artificial
introduction of a strong continual current of wind behind the draperies
--giving a hideous and uneasy animation to the whole.
In halls such as these --in a bridal
chamber such as this --I passed, with the Lady of Tremaine, the unhallowed
hours of the first month of our marriage --passed them with but little
disquietude. That my wife dreaded the fierce moodiness of my temper --that
she shunned me and loved me but little --I could not help perceiving; but
it gave me rather pleasure than otherwise. I loathed her with a hatred
belonging more to demon than to man. My memory flew back, (oh, with what
intensity of regret!) to Ligeia, the beloved, the august, the beautiful,
the entombed. I revelled in recollections of her purity, of her wisdom,
of her lofty, her ethereal nature, of her passionate, her idolatrous love.
Now, then, did my spirit fully and freely burn with more than all the fires
of her own. In the excitement of my opium dreams (for I was habitually
fettered in the shackles of the drug) I would call aloud upon her name,
during the silence of the night, or among the sheltered recesses of the
glens by day, as if, through the wild eagerness, the solemn passion, the
consuming ardor of my longing for the departed, I could restore her to
the pathway she had abandoned --ah, could it be forever? --upon the earth.
About the commencement of the second
month of the marriage, the Lady Rowena was attacked with sudden illness,
from which her recovery was slow. The fever which consumed her rendered
her nights uneasy; and in her perturbed state of half-slumber, she spoke
of sounds, and of motions, in and about the chamber of the turret, which
I concluded had no origin save in the distemper of her fancy, or perhaps
in the phantasmagoric influences of the chamber itself. She became at length
convalescent --finally well. Yet but a brief period elapsed, ere a second
more violent disorder again threw her upon a bed of suffering; and from
this attack her frame, at all times feeble, never altogether recovered.
Her illnesses were, after this epoch, of alarming character, and of more
alarming recurrence, defying alike the knowledge and the great exertions
of her physicians. With the increase of the chronic disease which had thus,
apparently, taken too sure hold upon her constitution to be eradicated
by human means, I could not fall to observe a similar increase in the nervous
irritation of her temperament, and in her excitability by trivial causes
of fear. She spoke again, and now more frequently and pertinaciously, of
the sounds --of the slight sounds --and of the unusual motions among the
tapestries, to which she had formerly alluded.
One night, near the closing in of
September, she pressed this distressing subject with more than usual emphasis
upon my attention. She had just awakened from an unquiet slumber, and I
had been watching, with feelings half of anxiety, half of vague terror,
the workings of her emaciated countenance. I sat by the side of her ebony
bed, upon one of the ottomans of India. She partly arose, and spoke, in
an earnest low whisper, of sounds which she then heard, but which I could
not hear --of motions which she then saw, but which I could not perceive.
The wind was rushing hurriedly behind the tapestries, and I wished to show
her (what, let me confess it, I could not all believe) that those almost
inarticulate breathings, and those very gentle variations of the figures
upon the wall, were but the natural effects of that customary rushing of
the wind. But a deadly pallor, overspreading her face, had proved to me
that my exertions to reassure her would be fruitless. She appeared to be
fainting, and no attendants were within call. I remembered where was deposited
a decanter of light wine which had been ordered by her physicians, and
hastened across the chamber to procure it. But, as I stepped beneath the
light of the censer, two circumstances of a startling nature attracted
my attention. I had felt that some palpable although invisible object had
passed lightly by my person; and I saw that there lay upon the golden carpet,
in the very middle of the rich lustre thrown from the censer, a shadow
--a faint, indefinite shadow of angelic aspect --such as might be fancied
for the shadow of a shade. But I was wild with the excitement of an immoderate
dose of opium, and heeded these things but little, nor spoke of them to
Rowena. Having found the wine, I recrossed the chamber, and poured out
a gobletful, which I held to the lips of the fainting lady. She had now
partially recovered, however, and took the vessel herself, while I sank
upon an ottoman near me, with my eyes fastened upon her person. It was
then that I became distinctly aware of a gentle footfall upon the carpet,
and near the couch; and in a second thereafter, as Rowena was in the act
of raising the wine to her lips, I saw, or may have dreamed that I saw,
fall within the goblet, as if from some invisible spring in the atmosphere
of the room, three or four large drops of a brilliant and ruby colored
fluid. If this I saw --not so Rowena. She swallowed the wine unhesitatingly,
and I forbore to speak to her of a circumstance which must, after all,
I considered, have been but the suggestion of a vivid imagination, rendered
morbidly active by the terror of the lady, by the opium, and by the hour.
Yet I cannot conceal it from my
own perception that, immediately subsequent to the fall of the ruby-drops,
a rapid change for the worse took place in the disorder of my wife; so
that, on the third subsequent night, the hands of her menials prepared
her for the tomb, and on the fourth, I sat alone, with her shrouded body,
in that fantastic chamber which had received her as my bride. --Wild visions,
opium-engendered, flitted, shadow-like, before me. I gazed with unquiet
eye upon the sarcophagi in the angles of the room, upon the varying figures
of the drapery, and upon the writhing of the parti-colored fires in the
censer overhead. My eyes then fell, as I called to mind the circumstances
of a former night, to the spot beneath the glare of the censer where I
had seen the faint traces of the shadow. It was there, however, no longer;
and breathing with greater freedom, I turned my glances to the pallid and
rigid figure upon the bed. Then rushed upon me a thousand memories of Ligeia
--and then came back upon my heart, with the turbulent violence of a flood,
the whole of that unutterable wo with which I had regarded her thus enshrouded.
The night waned; and still, with a bosom full of bitter thoughts of the
one only and supremely beloved, I remained gazing upon the body of Rowena.
It might have been midnight, or
perhaps earlier, or later, for I had taken no note of time, when a sob,
low, gentle, but very distinct, startled me from my revery. --I felt that
it came from the bed of ebony --the bed of death. I listened in an agony
of superstitious terror --but there was no repetition of the sound. I strained
my vision to detect any motion in the corpse --but there was not the slightest
perceptible. Yet I could not have been deceived. I had heard the noise,
however faint, and my soul was awakened within me. I resolutely and perseveringly
kept my attention riveted upon the body. Many minutes elapsed before any
circumstance occurred tending to throw light upon the mystery. At length
it became evident that a slight, a very feeble, and barely noticeable tinge
of color had flushed up within the cheeks, and along the sunken small veins
of the eyelids. Through a species of unutterable horror and awe, for which
the language of mortality has no sufficiently energetic expression, I felt
my heart cease to beat, my limbs grow rigid where I sat. Yet a sense of
duty finally operated to restore my self-possession. I could no longer
doubt that we had been precipitate in our preparations --that Rowena still
lived. It was necessary that some immediate exertion be made; yet turret
was altogether apart from the portion of the abbey tenanted by the servants
--there were none within call --I had no means of summoning them to my
aid without leaving the room for many minutes --and this I could not venture
to do. I therefore struggled alone in my endeavors to call back the spirit
ill hovering. In a short period it was certain, however, that a relapse
had taken place; the color disappeared from both eyelid and cheek, leaving
a wanness even more than that of marble; the lips became doubly shrivelled
and pinched up in the ghastly expression of death; a repulsive clamminess
and coldness overspread rapidly the surface of the body; and all the usual
rigorous illness immediately supervened. I fell back with a shudder upon
the couch from which I had been so startlingly aroused, and again gave
myself up to passionate waking visions of Ligeia.
An hour thus elapsed when (could
it be possible?) I was a second time aware of some vague sound issuing
from the region of the bed. I listened --in extremity of horror. The sound
came again --it was a sigh. Rushing to the corpse, I saw --distinctly saw
--a tremor upon the lips. In a minute afterward they relaxed, disclosing
a bright line of the pearly teeth. Amazement now struggled in my bosom
with the profound awe which had hitherto reigned there alone. I felt that
my vision grew dim, that my reason wandered; and it was only by a violent
effort that I at length succeeded in nerving myself to the task which duty
thus once more had pointed out. There was now a partial glow upon the forehead
and upon the cheek and throat; a perceptible warmth pervaded the whole
frame; there was even a slight pulsation at the heart. The lady lived;
and with redoubled ardor I betook myself to the task of restoration. I
chafed and bathed the temples and the hands, and used every exertion which
experience, and no little. medical reading, could suggest. But in vain.
Suddenly, the color fled, the pulsation ceased, the lips resumed the expression
of the dead, and, in an instant afterward, the whole body took upon itself
the icy chilliness, the livid hue, the intense rigidity, the sunken outline,
and all the loathsome peculiarities of that which has been, for many days,
a tenant of the tomb.
And again I sunk into visions of
Ligeia --and again, (what marvel that I shudder while I write,) again there
reached my ears a low sob from the region of the ebony bed. But why shall
I minutely detail the unspeakable horrors of that night? Why shall I pause
to relate how, time after time, until near the period of the gray dawn,
this hideous drama of revivification was repeated; how each terrific relapse
was only into a sterner and apparently more irredeemable death; how each
agony wore the aspect of a struggle with some invisible foe; and how each
struggle was succeeded by I know not what of wild change in the personal
appearance of the corpse? Let me hurry to a conclusion.
The greater part of the fearful
night had worn away, and she who had been dead, once again stirred --and
now more vigorously than hitherto, although arousing from a dissolution
more appalling in its utter hopelessness than any. I had long ceased to
struggle or to move, and remained sitting rigidly upon the ottoman, a helpless
prey to a whirl of violent emotions, of which extreme awe was perhaps the
least terrible, the least consuming. The corpse, I repeat, stirred, and
now more vigorously than before. The hues of life flushed up with unwonted
energy into the countenance --the limbs relaxed --and, save that the eyelids
were yet pressed heavily together, and that the bandages and draperies
of the grave still imparted their charnel character to the figure, I might
have dreamed that Rowena had indeed shaken off, utterly, the fetters of
Death. But if this idea was not, even then, altogether adopted, I could
at least doubt no longer, when, arising from the bed, tottering, with feeble
steps, with closed eyes, and with the manner of one bewildered in a dream,
the thing that was enshrouded advanced boldly and palpably into the middle
of the apartment.
I trembled not --I stirred not --for
a crowd of unutterable fancies connected with the air, the stature, the
demeanor of the figure, rushing hurriedly through my brain, had paralyzed
--had chilled me into stone. I stirred not --but gazed upon the apparition.
There was a mad disorder in my thoughts --a tumult unappeasable. Could
it, indeed, be the living Rowena who confronted me? Could it indeed be
Rowena at all --the fair-haired, the blue-eyed Lady Rowena Trevanion of
Tremaine? Why, why should I doubt it? The bandage lay heavily about the
mouth --but then might it not be the mouth of the breathing Lady of Tremaine?
And the cheeks-there were the roses as in her noon of life --yes, these
might indeed be the fair cheeks of the living Lady of Tremaine. And the
chin, with its dimples, as in health, might it not be hers? --but had she
then grown taller since her malady? What inexpressible madness seized me
with that thought? One bound, and I had reached her feet! Shrinking from
my touch, she let fall from her head, unloosened, the ghastly cerements
which had confined it, and there streamed forth, into the rushing atmosphere
of the chamber, huge masses of long and dishevelled hair; it was blacker
than the raven wings of the midnight! And now slowly opened the eyes of
the figure which stood before me. "Here then, at least," I shrieked aloud,
"can I never --can I never be mistaken --these are the full, and the black,
and the wild eyes --of my lost love --of the lady --of the LADY LIGEIA."
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